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Post by Midnattblod on May 7, 2014 9:26:55 GMT -6
that's why going to the bar is good for me. I go, have a few, and usually end up talking to anyone.
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Post by Sorillon on May 7, 2014 10:13:53 GMT -6
Hooray for speech.
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Post by Firiath on May 7, 2014 10:49:27 GMT -6
But here's the thing... Firiath is correct when she says that people in your life will come and go. That's just what happens. However, it's exactly that part of the whole thing that I find exhausting. I tend to put all I can of me into any friendships I'm fortunate enough to have, only to find that in pretty much every instance that said friendships end up having an expiry date. So, yeah, every time someone moves on and I never hear from them again, I feel like a jilted lover (pathetic, I know). After years of that, I've gotten tired of expending the energy required to make and maintain friendships because at the end of the day I get zero return. I've gradually become more and more of a recluse, and I hate being one, but I also hate putting effort into being friends when people are so casual about friendships in the first place. So, it's damned if I do and damned if I don't. Gah! I see what you mean. That is a dilemma indeed, and one I wouldn't know how to solve. :/ I could just say things like "deal with it" or "get over it", but I know it's easier said than done (and I'd sound like a douchebag, which I hope I am not). Although I really valued the friendships I've had and I invested a lot of energy into them I quickly learned to leave them behind when necessary (how dramatic that sounds), but I couldn't tell you how. Maybe I'm just... I don't know, 'deadened' in some way (again, that sounds much more dramatic than I want it to sound). that's why going to the bar is good for me. I go, have a few, and usually end up talking to anyone. How do you do it? I find things like these so difficult. I could spend hours at a bar and never speak to anyone. :S Of course I'm not expecting an answer to that question.  |
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Post by Midnattblod on May 7, 2014 13:29:23 GMT -6
I get talkative when I get drunk. if I just go to chill that's one thing but if I end up drinking too much I get chatty. doesn't happen too much but I have had some interesting conversations with random people.
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Post by TAZ on May 7, 2014 14:14:22 GMT -6
it's not a whiny baby sesh. it's healthy to talk about feelings (i think)
i just don't understand. i've never had a desire to have friends, people annoy me
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Post by Sorillon on May 7, 2014 14:59:16 GMT -6
it's not a whiny baby sesh. it's healthy to talk about feelings (i think) I agree with this, unhelpful as that is in the context. |
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Post by Firiath on May 7, 2014 16:45:11 GMT -6
I get talkative when I get drunk. if I just go to chill that's one thing but if I end up drinking too much I get chatty. doesn't happen too much but I have had some interesting conversations with random people. Maybe I should try the same one day!  i just don't understand. i've never had a desire to have friends, people annoy me |
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Post by Midnattblod on May 7, 2014 17:29:13 GMT -6
then again the other side of that is that when I go to the bar I run out of money real quick. so yea last little bit I've been at home all the time which suits me just fine cause people can be morons way too often.
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Post by Crouton on May 7, 2014 18:11:53 GMT -6
I know what you are saying Eph. I've been friends with people for years before, really close friends too, who one day just became a different person and stopped contacting me. It cane leave you a bit confused for a while when that happens.
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Post by Taliesin on May 7, 2014 18:21:15 GMT -6
I love that scene from IT Crowd. I laughed so hard when I first saw it, and then wondered if I should be crying instead... I know what you are saying Eph. I've been friends with people for years before, really close friends too, who one day just became a different person and stopped contacting me. It cane leave you a bit confused for a while when that happens. And reluctant to start all over again with new potential friends. Anyway, I'm going to leave it at that for now. I don't want to keep dragging down the mood! Ha ha! |
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Post by Midnattblod on May 7, 2014 20:24:45 GMT -6
I have no idea what I wanted to post.
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Post by TAZ on May 7, 2014 23:33:58 GMT -6
i just can't sleep anymore
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Post by Midnattblod on May 7, 2014 23:44:14 GMT -6
blurp. so I just spent an hour plus read Elder Scrolls lore.
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Post by TAZ on May 7, 2014 23:56:44 GMT -6
why?
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Post by Midnattblod on May 8, 2014 0:01:20 GMT -6
I was bored and I enjoy the lore of the series to an extent.
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